if i.... If i only said how much i really cared... but... since i didnt say anything at all... does that mean that I really didnt care at all? since i remained silent... during a time of emotion... does that mean that my emotions are weak? the countless times i held you in my arms... and the countless times you bared your soul to me.... does that mean that my soul is sealed? i never spoke... when spoken to... i never replied when asked a question of sinscerity... does that mean that i was never sincire... does that mean that i was never attentive... you put your feelings on the line... and in return... i was nothing more than a living metophorical teddy bear..... i was nothing more than an object used to comfort.... never able to speak.. eyes never showing anything more than emotionless stares... but even though i never said or showed it... does that mean that i truly didnt care? when a teddy bear is lost... a little girl will cry for it and mourn... but the bear never gave anything in return other than physical comfort... regardless of what the girl said it never replied to her... it never reassured her of how much it loved her...that does not make the teddy bear emotionally hollow... yet i am much like that bear.... so why.... why do i feel so hollow inside... if i scream at the peak of my voice... my undying love for somebody... does that mean anything more than not saying anything at all? why... why would speaking what you feel.. make it anymore true...arent the best feelings left unsaid... how can one describe love... and without being able to describe an object.. how can you put words to it... how can you express care if you cannot know how it feels... why is there a blockade on my soul.. that wont allow me to learn what care is? why must i never know.. if you would have loved me more.. if i had said............... ............ anything